Yup I am back, nope this blogging thing was not just a one day affair!
Status report on the squash plants: soggy and wet and I hope to get back into the field tomorrow to finish tagging and hope not to see any more soft rot laced fruit!
Overall today, I am frustrated and after venting to several people have realized that I must compartmentalize right now and just focus on studying for my qualifiers. Why is it that when you are upset about a world of other things the one thing you should do is not what you want to do?
I know that is the right thing to do so here I am studying about DRIs and factors that effect carotenogenesis in fruit tissue and ripening.
I do know that qualifying exams are important, first they are a tradition that many an advisor will relish their experience and share their stories of their grueling experiences and feel the need to make it an excruciating experience for the student (me) just so we will have something to tell our future grad students.
Actually, my advisor has been really good about it, it is more me that is imposing the pressure and stress. Mostly, because I want to do well because I feel my committee has such high expectations of me that I best do well!
So that is my aim= do my best no matter what and then I will have no regrets. I expect to pass but can't say I have relished the long weeks of studying leading up to it. Next week is the big week and in a way I can't wait to just get them over with, even if it is going to be 40h of testing.
I guess thats how they seperate the PhD. students from the PhD. candidates........ ha ha
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